BecomingThePersonYouWantToBe

Today it occurred to me that I AM becoming the person I used to dream of being. The person I wanted to be a long time ago. The person I used to wish I was. Then I stopped wishing, and started working on becoming the person I want to be. In magick you don't just wish and poof something happens. Thats hollywood magic, stage magic. Which is not real. But a trick. In spiritual magick. You work towards your goal to manifest it. I used to think, I could never be one of those straight girls. In my mind you were someone that I was. Party girl, or one of the very very religious women that wear dresses and those bonnets. But there is another alternative. ME! Clean me! Earthy me! Me Me Me! alcohol free, drug free (recreational/illegal and prescription). Clean eating me. No pop, or soda. *giggles* depending on where you live you may call it soda, you may call it pop... No fried foods. Well I've definately decreased my fried foods. Still working on the french fry connection. I do not eat any breaded food, pasta, cookies, breads, cakes, brownies, donuts or the like.

Funny that I have also manifested myself into a gluten-free diet. I am gluten intolerant. I had really really wanted to be on a paleo lifestyle. So its actually kind of funny that through my health i'm making my way there. I'd say gluten-free is a huge step in the right direction. Even if forced into it...I've often thought, maybe thats the only way I could become gluten-free.

I never thought a day would arrive that I am comfortable in my own skin. Comfortable being myself, and letting others see that self. But I do see light at the end of the tunnel. I am a happy pagan!

Summer solstice 2013

Mystical summer solstice blessings!! On this day i am showing gratitude for the sun & the solar deities

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Summer solstice is the longest day if our calendar year. Our Sun shines brightest and strongest on this day. There is actually more daylight today than darkness. After today the days will slowly shorten. The harvest season will soon be upon us, with the dark part of the year bear...

Mid-Summers Eve / litha is a good time to attract faeries to your garden or magickal space. Litha is celebrated June 19 - 22. Decorate your altar in vibrant blues and bright yellows. Call upon the sun deities and fae folk to bless and enchant your path with fortune, good luck, prosperity, & abundant crops for your fall harvest...

KeepUpThePositive

Originally this post was going to be a bit of a rant because I was sitting here thinking about my job & began to cry. But then something else happened. I got a card in the mail today from my spiritual sister Renee Avard. The things she hand wrote in that note are vital, special and powerful. And I know she meant them and did not just write down some random words on a piece of paper w/out any intent behind them at all. So I began to think, why not turn these sad feelings into positive ones.

Who cares if some people who work in offices think incorrect things about me. They don't really know me. My family knows me. My friends know me. I know me. The Universe knows me.


Everything happens for a reason. Maybe I'm suppose to move on and its okay, and it is the right time to move on. I've been a C.N.A. for 7 years. I've learned, I've experienced, I've endured. There is now an opening for C.N.A.'s at an emergency room / clinic. And they will assist us in becoming M.A.'s if you like. Which I think that I would like to learn something new, advance in my career. But not in the direction of becoming a nurse.

I'm so tired of breaking my back lifting residents that won't help. The administration's answer to all the residents doing what she needs them to do is to 'just flirt with them'. And that is from the mouth of our D.O.N. wow! That is outside the scope of my practice for my job. If a resident can not stand they should be using a lift. But I get punched in the cheek bone for doing that & then almost fired because I had a natural reaction to scream out god dammit. hmmm... odd behavior on my part. I know... Especially since I've already been suffering with neuralgia on that whole side of my face and head for the last 5 years from shingles. My trigemenal nerve is effected.  And people just do not understand that nerve damage does not mean its broken & has less pain. It means that it is ultra sensitive and has waaaaay more pain.

What I really really want for myself - 

is to be a successful Passion Parties Independent Consultant. I haven't yet been able to be successful with it in the small community that I live in. Not to say that I won't ever be. I'm not giving up yet.

So back to the title of my post - Keep Up The Positive. Just because I feel sad for a moment. Does not mean I have to STAY in that moment. :) 

I can change it. I can use meditation, goddess prayer, rituals to bring about positive change in my own life for myself, visualization... I have many many tools of the universe at my side. 

I am a daughter of Isis. Isis taught women to weave, and other tools, to be strong, she listened to all of their prayers no matter their status in this life. To Isis we are all worthy.

 No matter who you are, where you are in your life; always go forward. Be proud of yourself. If you do not feel that way. What can you do to change it? I would luv to hear from you & meet you on your pathway. (((Blessed Be))))

I am a witch
I am at one with the Earth, the Universe, and the Divine
I walk my path in peace
free from strife and fear
I always allow love and joy to come near
So mote it be
Blessed Be )O(

I am a many faceted person. I am empathic & proud of it & embrace it & understand it. Stop by some of my other online homes to know the other dimensions of me too. I am a passion parties consultant. I do online/facebook parties too. I am looking for team members just like you all around world. I am a pixeler. Which means I create digital graphics on my computer with a graphics program. I love designing my own websites too, with wordpress.
My Passion Parties website - Enchanted Passion. Enchanted Passion is also my team name ;)
Faery Charm is my pixel website
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You can friend me at two locations on facebook - My passion parties profile & everyday family stuff - Julie S. Jenks

and/or my magickal profile WiccanMoonMagick

Looking forward to blogging with you soon ;)

JuniperBerries-PaganBlogProject2013

Pagan Blog Project - Week 20 - Letter J

Juniper Berries are a very fragrant herb. I love their dark purple/blue/black color. Their magickal properties are many. Did you know that the ancient greeks burned juniper to prevent illnesses, even the black plague. 

When chewed the berries combat bad breath and aid to heal damaged gums. Juniper oil is used for a variety of ailments including digestive problems, kidney and bladder. Those with kidney disease should avoid it though. In aromatherapy juniper is often found in rub blends as juniper detoxifies & relaxes the body.

Juniper - Juniperus Communis
Male
Element - Fire
Planet - Jupiter
Properties - protection, warding off evil, combating hexes, psychic powers, attract good health.

Hang juniper at your door to ward off evil people, spirits, and ill health in your home.
Wear juniper for protection agaisnt animal attacks, & accidents.

Juniper has long been burned to ward off evil. Added to any love charm, spell, incense, amulet increases the male power significantly. 

Sources: Cunningham’s Encyclopedia of Magical Herbs by Scott Cunningham

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Prompt: Pagan "Coming out of the broom closet day"

National Coming out of the Broom Closet day was May 3rd. I am already out to my parents & sister. I didn't make any grand announcement to the rest of my family because my family is very loving and accepting of each other no matter what. A few of my friends know. My biggest shock came though when my neighbor who also used to be a co-worker of mine for 6 years all of a sudden asked me - "So how long have your been into witchcraft" She even told me I should have seen the look on my face! I can not even imagine. Because I remember choking and stumbling on my words. Turns out she is too! I had one friend at work I had been talking to about this before I left. And he kept telling me that I'd be surprised how many people are like me. I just kept saying who, and not believing him.

We live in a small town in Wyoming. A lot of mormons. But witches?? Where?- I would think. And little by little I have see people accepting and thinking along the same lines I do. And that people were not as judgmental as I thought they would be.

Our fear is always much bigger than peoples actual reactions...

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 Pagan Blog Project-Beltane Prompt

With Beltane less than a week away, I thought it was only appropriate to have our prompt be about it.  How do you celebrate?  Is it a personal celebration, or do you go to a public gathering?  What does it mean to you, personally?

 

 

Beltane holds a dear place in my heart and soul. It is my favorite sabbat. I am so thrilled that I get to celebrate it this year. I was working a different shift & so exhausted last year. My work shift just changed ( for at least a month ). And I will be able to go have my special day at Red Gulch Dinasour Tracksite & my sabbat ritual. SO excited!!

Beltane has a lot of personal and spiritual meaning for me. I remember celebrating May Day as a child. So there is that connection to childhood. My grandma that I was very very close to passed away on may day. As I have probably mentioned more than once or twice in blog posts before *giggles* - Beltane is also very special to me because it is the very first sabbat I learned about & celebrated. I realized who and what I was March 27th 2011 & immediately started researching holidays. Beltane was SO close that I almost didn't get a maypole candle. But thanx to the wonderful quick work of White Magick Alchemy, I was able to have my very 1st sabbat candle & celebrate Beltane in style.

 

Beltane is a time of rebirth, & change. Which I feel a strong connection to. I personally have been going through a lot of changes in my life. Personal growth big time through this past year. Have overcome lots of personal obstacles & fears.

I have become more open with my religion. Even at work! *lol* I'm careful who I talk to about it though.

 

 

PaganBlogProject2013-Incense

For week 18 of 2013 is the letter I.
Incense really stood out for me. I found out about natural loose incense two years ago when first learning about the craft. It didn't take long before I wanted to try creating my own. I've made an 'autumn forest' blend that I just love burning. They are not as difficult as you would think. A little of this. A bit of that... (we will lead into my recipe later)

First lets start with what you will be burning your incense in? A small cauldron is what I use for mine. A small die cast iron cauldron. Then I have red rock, and I set a self igniting charcoal disc (after lighting it from the bottom) on the red rock. You can also use sand instead of redrock. I bet colored sand would look very pretty!

All of these items can be purchased at witch shops, eclectic stores, e-bay, etsy...
You can get a lot more charcoal discs for your money at e-bay. I like to support witch shops. But when I'm low on money I go to e-bay and try to find the ones with no shipping. *lol*

Witch Shops/Eclectic Stores:
 Pagan Stuff Cheap
Under The New Moon
White Magick Alchemy
13 Moons
Isis Books
Sacred Mists

Now that we have something to burn our fabulous incense in. Let create it!
What kind of incense do we want to create? Shall we craft it under a full moon? The waxing moon? Do you want to create it as a part of your ritual or sabbat celebration? Or just in the middle of the afternoon on a whim? All up to you.

Star with what you know you love and experiment. I write down everything I craft in crafts and spells book. The pages will later be decorated and added to my big B.O.S. (Book of Shadows)

I love frankincense and myrrh. So I knew that I wanted frankincense & myrrh resin in my blend. I wanted a woodsy scent too. So I added a couple drops of pine and woodrose pure essential oils. With my mortar and pestle I grinded herbs such as rosemary, sage, cinnamon stick, dragonsblood. I put my frankincense and myrrh resin in there too. A wonderful woodsy aroma is what I ended up with.

Since I do not know ahead of time what I will end up with, if I will like it or not. I use just very small amounts of each item. Pure essential oils are very strong. So it usually does not take much. Start with 1 drop, and see if you like it. Add more if its not enough for you.  Crafting items is all about experimentation for me.  Your not going to come up with 'Witches Brew' the very first time you mix together some herbs and resins. *lol* But you just might come up with something that you do like a lot. And with practice you will learn more about the herbs and ingredients your using.

Always use clean tools. Clean your tools immediately after using them. Never use the same dropper for more than 1 essential oil. Keep the caps on your essential oils, as they are concentrated and will evaporate very very quickly. I always seal my herbs back up right away too.

What To Store Your New Incense In: I use medicine bottles that I have washed out very well, jars with lids, I have purchased small apothecary bottles for the oils I craft. I mostly use old medicine bottles and draw a pentacle on them so I know they are for magick only. And try to get the medical label off as much as possible.

 

Pagan Blog Project
Pagan Blog Project Week 18 Letter I

 

                     

H-is for herbs

Pagan Blog Project 2013 Letter H. Week 16 / April 12



     Herbs - This weeks project blog was really hard for me. Finding something that I know about, that starts with the letter "h". Long before I even started on my pagan path I always 'knew' that for all the western medicine we have for everything, there exists natural herb remedies. Nature provides everything for us to be able to live off the land naturally. I love learning about the healing properties of herbs. My favorite herbs to work with are lavender and rosemary. Both healing herbs. Rosemary was used in ancient times in both weddings and funerals. Rosemary is my favorite oil to wear as a perfume or cologne. Rosemary was used for good luck in wedding ceremonies, as well as to aid loved ones to a good journey in the other world. Wear a rosemary oil blend to ease joint pain, back aches. Burn a couple of drops in water in an essential oil diffuser to increase mental clarity, while studying. I also like to rub on my temples to improve memory daily. Of course meat & potatoes flavored with your home grown rosemary is just awesome!
Rosemary is also a gentle benevolent and binding herb. And therefore is used in many love spells and rituals. Plant rosemary by your front door to ward off evil & keep harmony in the family home. Add essential rosemary oil to your shampoo to increase hair growth!
     Magickal Properties of Rosemary: good luck, cleanses, rid negativity, protection, purification, improve memory, love, sleep. Is often substituted for frankincense. Rosemary can be used as a substitute for any other herb because of its range of magical powers.

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Lavender: Lavender is a love herb. A common ingredient in love spells. Lavender brings peace, joy, and healing to the home. Added to your bath water at the end of the day to ease the stresses of the day, relaxation, ease anxiety and headaches. Place a sachet of lavender under your pillow at night to help aid sleep. Throw lavender into your Midsummer's bonfire as an offering to the Gods and Goddesses. The folk name for lavender is 'Elf Leaf'. Perhaps this is why it is associated with Beltane and Midsummer / Midsummer's Eve...


     Lavender also protects against cruel treatment at the hands of a spouse if worn.The flowers are also burned or smouldered to induce sleep and rest, and are scattered about the home to maintain its peacefulness. The plant is so powerful that, if when depressed, one gazes upon the plant all sorrowwill depart and a joyous will settle upon the observer.The odour of Lavender is conducive to long life, and should be smelled as often as possible.Lavender is also used in healing mixtures, carried to see ghosts and worn to protect against the evil eye. It is added to purification baths.Despite Lavender's love associations, in the Renaissance it was believed that lavender together with rosemary, if worn, would preserve a woman's chastity.A wish divination: Place Lavender under your pillow while thinking of your wish. Do this just prior to retiring for the night. In the morning, if you have dreamt of anything relating to your wish, it will come true. However, if you did not dream, or if they were unconnected with your wish, it will not manifest.
Resource: Herbs Trees & Fungi

 In the beginning of writing this post I thought it would be very difficult. It was very difficult finding a subject that would interest me & that I had some knowledge of, beginning with the letter H. But it came easy to me to write about lavender and rosemary. They are my favorite herbs to work with. I have been in the craft for 2 years now. Actually, Beltane will mark 2 years. Lavender and Rosemary are the only oils I have made. I learned by experimentation that lavender oil is great for itchy bug bites and athletes foot! 

Join me in some blogging! 

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Pagan Blog Prompt: Coven v.s. Solitary Practice.

I am a solitary practitioner by circumstance. But I do not mind it being that way. Sometimes I wish I had a mentor. Someone to teach me the old ways of the craft. So I try to choose wise books and websites to learn from. But sometimes the best way to learn is by experience.  At this point I do not have any interest to be in a coven. I have no idea what would be expected of me. Structured studying? no thanks! As a solitary I can learn what I want, when I want, at the pace I want. I'm learning several things at one time. I'm fulfilling my dream of crafting my own candles, learning about herbs & oils, as well as Celtic & Egyptian Pantheons.

I started on my path 2 years ago. I started by searching about the Sabbats. Beltane was my very 1st Sabbat to celebrate, before I even knew anything at all about paganism, the craft, etc... I'd have to say the first and most important things I learned by an online school Witch-School. I had to drop it later on because of finances. But plan to resume. And over the last two years I feel that I have moved from a Wicca interest much more to a green witch. It is the green witch that I feel is more 'me'. A more ancient & natural path is the one that I am more drawn to. But I find it difficult to say to other people outside of the craft "I am a witch". So, if presented with that I would say I am pagan. Because after all, I am that too ;)

I have enjoyed my solitary practice. Creating my own altars, my own sacred space. Creating my own garden inside and outside of my home. I can have a ritual, dedication, anytime and anywhere I want. I do not have to wait to get together with a formal get together time. I live in a small town in Wyoming. Mormons to my left, Mormons across the street from me. *lol* I have no let it widely known of my spirituality. But I'm beginning to. I don't like having to keep it a secret. I'm so proud of who and what I am. It has been a long journey here. I've never been happier.

To wonder and be curious about something most of your life, then to FINALLY be a part of it. Well thats just a wonderful peaceful feeling. Like a huge weight lifted. To find out the things I dreamed of in my dreams is real! Its not a fantasy in my head.

Blessed Be

Newbooks

Yay!! First of my new books in more than a year.

Can hardly wait to receive my essential oils, herbs, witches brew incense!

ThoughtsofBeltane

Feeling compelled to write a bit about Beltane today. Beltane is my favorite of the sabbats to celebrate. But because of work I will not be at home to celebrate. Not too happy about that. I read somewhere online that Beltane actually runs from May 1-5th. I hope so. I hope by celebrating on a day other than the 1st will still be ok. I have the feeling it won't be the same though as celebrating on May 1st - May Day... Maybe I can hold ritual at midnight on the night before. ??

Beltane is very special to me. I've been on my pagan path for 2 years now. And Beltane pretty much marks that spot, as Beltane was the very 1st sabbat I celebrated. My awakening to who I truly am occurred on April 27th 2011. I immediately started searching for what the holidays are & how they are celebrated. So I scurried to put together a Beltane celebrating. *giggles* Very very memorable day. Spring & Autumn are my favorite seasons. Always have been. I remember celebrating May Day as a child. And my maternal grandma passed away on May Day. I was extremely close to her. So perhaps I feel like I'm also celebrating our love on that day. Wow, barely got through that sentence w/out a tear! After 12 years, still so heart breaking...

I include my family with celebrating the sabbats. And I just hate it that I'm working that night. Which also takes away any celebrations I would have done that day as well.

I want to go to Red Gulch dinasour digs outside of Greybull. I love taking the kids there. I have a geocache hidden there also. So I enjoy checking on that too. It's so peaceful out there! And when we are leaving at sunset. O.M.G. Gorgeous!! I was thinking of making some soft mead again too. And trying to track down a recipe alternate for bread. As I can not have any of the traditional pagan cakes, breads, etc.. because of my glute-free diet needs.



I always enjoy lighting my beltane candles in ritual, with its pretty maypole ribbons! And using my faerie incense.

It's no wonder I luv Beltane so much. I'm all about the faeries. And Beltane is one perfect time to commune with the faeries. Spring & faeries just go together ;)

Best air-filtering houseplants, according to NASA | MNN - Mother Nature Network

Best air-filtering houseplants, according to NASA | MNN - Mother Nature Network

I would love to have my home filled with various plants! A plan of action for the spring ;)

G is for Gratitude

Pagan Blog Project Letter G Prompt

 Gratitude! Be grateful for what we have, where we are in this moment. If you do not have gratitude, we will loose what we do have. Because we did not appreciate it.

Be grateful for everything. Be grateful for the dirty dishes. Because not everyone has food to put onto their plates. Be grateful for those arguments with our children. Because one day they will have knowledge to pass on and your arguments were not wasted after all. Because they DID hear your words. They were just too young to appreciate your wisdom.

Be grateful for the grass we have to mow this summer. Because some people have only dirt!

Having gratitude is to appreciate every simple thing in this life and to acknowledge it for all of its beauty. Whether we understand it or not is not for us to say. To not appreciate it is to throw away the gift.

Gratitude is a part of the Law of Attraction. If we express gratitude for the little things in our lives, larger things are to follow! After all, we can't simply be thankful for only the huge gifts. We have to be able to appreciate the smaller ones first. Then the Universe will bring to us the larger gifts, the ones that we really really want. The law of attraction is 'like attracts like'.

When we are negative, sad, wishful for what we do not have. Then the universe brings more of the same. When we are positive, grateful, thankful, kind to others, the universe brings more of the same! It's not always an easy practice. But you know what they say.
Practice makes perfect...

'What you focus on is what you create'

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The Magic Secret -  a little facebook group I created for those reading the books
& applying the practice to their lives...