Lavender Oil

Today I made my grand daughter Evie some lavender oil. I had made a very tiny amount on Summer Solstice
 to annoint a candle with. Then rubbed the remainder into my hands & arms. And she smelled it on me and really liked it. So I told her I'll make her a bottle of her own. I put some dried lavender in hers & dressed up the bottle with purple string & a gold butterfly charm.

She likes it a lot! *tee hee hee* 

Evie's Lavender Oil
This makes 1 vial of lavender oil

put a pinch of dried lavender in the vial or it can be added last
(just make sure to save enough room to add it in).
fill vial almost full with sweet almond carrier oil.
Add 1 to 2 drops of lavender essential oil.
Create with your loving and pure intentions.
Wrap with string color of your choice according
to your intentions for your oil.
Mine was dressed with purple thread & a butterfly.
Butterfly symbolizes change / transformation.

This was crafted for my 11 year old grand daughter. At the time
I am going through changes. As well as she is too...

Theres only 4 more days until Evie and Dante & my daughter Nicole leave to move to Illinois.
Last week was all about fun. This week seems like a count down. Sometimes I'm just fine. Other times,
I'm trying so hard to not get all depressed. Feels like I am going to be all by myself now. Now I won't have
any family here at all. It's been so wonderful having them here with me in the same town over the past
3 years.  Although I'm happy for them being able to move on in their lives. I feel like I'm back to being all by myself
again.

I have no job now. Was pushed into quiting a week ago. Therefore I have no friends now either.
No family, no friends, no job. How could I help not getting depressed....

I havent even been studying much. I was so happy. Except the facility I worked out didn't fit me. But I was making it work. But then that all exploded out of the blue and got worse and worse. Seems like everything fell all apart in the same week.
I know that out of chaos comes change. It's really hard to see a phoenix rising out of ashes. I just have to keep going though.

I read today I am responsible for the way I feel. In wicca we are all responsible for ourselves. We make our own joy or sadness. 

Job Hunting...

today I put in an application in at a local nursing home & got to have an interview on the spot.

Felt positive! The administrator said she will have a look at the CNA schedule and see what she can come up with. I offered mornings or afternoons, if thats the only opening. I prefer mornings. But would be willing to work any shift available. 8 hour or 12 hour, part or full time.

 Well, we just had the briefest little storm here. *lol* Perhaps the powers that be are arranging my future for me. And this lil phoenix will soon be rising out of the ashes...

I feel so so good about this job. It will be good to get back to work. I am excited to get the phone call saying I can start...

My Litha Foods Part1

Freyja / Freya is just 1 of the deities associated with Litha.
It is Freya that I call upon this day to bless us with
love, beauty, and passion.

~~~~~~~~~
Love for those we love and who love us
May we always see beauty in all things big & small
May the passion of magick live within us all
In Perfect Love & Perfect Trust...

~~~~~~~~~

Now I would like to share some photos I took today of my wonderful kitchen witchin'.

*lol*

There are before and afters...

 

 My soft mead as it was cooking.

 

dough stage of my solstice herb bread.
so proud to have used my very own fresh rosemary,
chives, & lemon thyme.

2 of my finished products of love.
My rhubarb pie made with love, happiness & friendship.
A good friend gave me the most ginormous stalks of
rhubarb I've ever seen! Can't wait to taste it!!
And my oh too yummy herb bread that I couldn't wait
to have a piece of.

 

Here are more pictures of my plants & herbs I took today as well.

 

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My purple passion plant. Haven't had one
since I was a pre teen!

some of my indoor plants.

our strawberry plants

and another strawberry plant!

My athame I finally got to use today.

My 1st try @ crafting some rosemary oil.

Litha 2011

Happy Litha! Summer Solstice Blessings!

 Today I performed a simple Litha Candle Lighting.

1 yellow candle dressed with 1part lavender essential oil and 2 parts sweet almond carrier oil.
I used the rubbing technique to dress my candle.
I sprinkled 3 parts (3 pieces) of dried Jasmine on the top of the candle.
(not an easy task w/ a chime sized candle).
At my altar with my ankh sitting out I then faced the rising sun. And repeated 9 times:
Lord and Lady of Love and Light
guide me on this day of solstice.

I kept it very simple so I wouldnt mess it up. This new witch sometimes gets nervous to be perfect and messes things up. *giggle*
I'm finding in the books that I'm reading though that pure intent and pureness of heart is all the God & Goddess want. So, I simple relaxed, focused, & visualized and everything turned out just fine.

I am allowing my candle to burn out on its own. I've never done that before. But in just 30 minutes
its a little more than half way burned already. So everything is going smoothly.

Now for explanation of my colors and herbs and oils.
When I say '1 part' I mean that I was just free pouring. I do not have a dropper yet.
So I just dripped the fluids slowly. 'parts' sounds large. But it really was not.
Since these are concentrated oils it only takes drops...

Yellow Candle: Yellow is for the sun & happiness
Since I'm a new witch I try to research everything to make sure I'm using the correct items.
Jasmine & lavender are both for love and calmness.
Jasmine: attributes of love and its effects are swift & obvious
Lavender: also attributes of love, cleansing, protection, shielding from negative vibrations.

I'm a huge fan of lavender. But not french lavender.
Music: Paint The Sky With Stars by Enya
I always have magickal music playing when I'm working at my altar.
I will do a more involved ritual tonight.
 
Now, I better get off here and start on my Litha foods.
Soft Mead, Rhubarb Pie, Summer Solstice Bread, Enchiladas, Fresh Strawberries and corn on the cob
I took a couple shots of my altar this morning to share also.

The picture that sits atop my little witches' cupboard
is a gift from my daughter and grandkids on my birthday.
It is Selene the Goddess of the Moon

Bumpy Path...

Storms have been brewing for months now at work towards me. I have been constantly, continually harassed by the administrator for too long. I was finally pushed into resigning. She has complaints against me constantly that are not true and says that I have a problem if I cannot see what others do and that she believes nothing I say.

I simply told her I do not care if you believe me or not.
And she replied with even if your job depends on it. Which felt like a huge threat. She has been trying to get rid of me for months anyway. So I said well what do you want me to do then resign or what. And she said yes. So I did.

A few months back the admin & my manager (at the time)  called me into the office for my review and said they have complaints that I was going around asking co-workers for narcotics! I've never ever heard of anything so stupid in all my life. Just because at 1 time I was on hydrocodone for shingles nerve pain they took that an ran with it.

Only problem was that I hadn't had any in over a year!! Then they refused to do a UA on me. Then it was just 1 dumb compaint after another. To where I was eventually pushed into a corner and I can not just sit there and be beat on and not push back.

  A lot of staff as well as myself are very unhappy about this. But what can ya do. It's not worth the stress to live that way...

I could feel this 'end' coming for quite a while. And actually in the days before this my card readings on facebook were pointing in the same direction. Even though I didn't want them to.

But, I feel deep down that I learned what I needed to. My time is up. It's poison. It's time to get out of there and move on. I'm a strong strong person and its just time to move on...
I have so much going for me! Blessed Be~

~•~A Magickal Day Afoot...~•~

What a magickal day! I wrote my own spell today. I liked it so much and have such a positive vibe about it, I plan to refine it. A couple of mistakes happened. But maybe that is why they call it 'practicing'. Any spell will be most benificial if you change bits of it to make it your own.
My spell is called

'Good Day with my Husband' Spell
1 bright pink candle, sprinkle lavender rosemary & red mini rosebuds atop of pink candle, and in chalice filled with water. Burn vanilla incense during ritual.
Also need: mini besom (broom), white sage smudge stick, 3 amethyst stones, athame, picture of a goddess of love intent, the passion or other love intent tarot card.

Center yourself. - as in ground and center.
Then smudge your magickal space,altar,tools.
Set up altar with a pentacle in the center. Set up your tools according to the elements, on top of the pentacle. Goddess atop for the element of spirit. Besom symbolizes air, amethysts symbolic to earth, cauldron symbolic to fire, chalice with water for element of water.

Sprinkle bits of lavender, rosemary, and mini red rosebuds in lit pink candle and water.
Light vanilla incense. Which is in the center of the pentacle.
Take athame in hand call upon a Goddess of love intent ask her to bless
your day and smile upon you.
Make writing your spell part of your ritual. I chose to not write it ahead of time on this spell. Write in your neatest handwriting:
Perfect Love and Perfect Trust
Have this we must
Husband and Wife having fun today
bring this my way if you may

Another version I just thought of though could go something like this
perfect love and perfect trust
recieve from above to the dust
husband and wife
having fun in life.

you have your quatrain written in your tidiest handwriting.
Then take your athame clenching the handle with solid willful intent
holding it above your altar draw a heart in the air, seeing the blue flames
it makes thinking of your husband and the intent of true and loving bond
between yourself and your husband. Draw the heart as many times as you like.
I suggest at least three. Do not break the heart. Draw it solid w/out picking up
the athame. Draw as a solid heart line.

Then take your athame and dip it in the melting wax quickly smear it
on the inside of your paper. Sealing it with your love and intent.
Repeat your spell 9 times.
(A witches ladder would be helpful at this time in the ritual if you have one).
While saying your written spell visualize yourself laughing, loving and having fun with your husband. Doing whatever you consider to be fun with your husband...
Light your words on fire to send your wish up to the Gods & Goddesses.

Thank the Lord and Lady for blessing you and your husband.
Dump your water from your chalice in to your witches garden, a plant,
something earthly.
Ground & Center
Clean your tools

Do you ever feel different after you work a spell? I do. I feel clear and clean and energized. I get goosebumps too when I am doing the spell. *lol*

Feel free to comment to me. I'm still in the very early stages of learning. If you see that I'm doing something wrong, using a term wrong. Let me know. :)

Decisions?.. Decisions?...

)O(

I am trying to make a difficult decision today. Maybe I'll meditate about it. I don't know...
I have decided not to renew my domain www.faerycharm.com next year. And I have also already decided not to renew my webhosting space account. Can't even get into my account anyway. I could write support & they would help me immediately. But I don't even really feel like messing with a website/members area or anything like that anymore anyway. But I do kind of feel badly about the member area content people have paid to join. Although it not be that many. *lol*

So, I opened a free site with www.wordpress.com But now I feel like I don't even feel like messing with uploading stuff and building a membership area. Hmmm... I don't know...

I'm really really into my studies and work and home. I have no intention of creating anything new.

Well, then I guess that right there says it all. I will not rebuild a members area. 

I did make a new profile for myself though for a forum I've belonged to for about 10 years.
WiccanMoon was taken. :( So, the only other name that came into my head was Brighid.
So at www.forums.delphiforums.com my member name is BrighidLight. Made this siggie
real quick last night.

MyWitchlyWishlist

My lil wish list of witchy things I am trying to make or purchase....

Chalice - This will most likely be of dyecast resin, have a dark ages look to it.

Candles - I am in need of all kinds of candles. I need small ritual candles the most.
I want to start collecting all different colors to have on hand.

Herbs - I am collecting all types of herbs. I am growing my own lavender. But trying to stock up my witches cupboard / apothecary...

Essential Oils - I am of course going to be making some of my own I hope. I don't have any essential oils yet at all. For an 'extended class' I'm taking at Sacred Mists I need the following oils to get started.
Marjoram, peppermint, eucalyptus, grapefruit, geranium, lemon, chamomile,
rosemary, tea tree, lavender, and bergamot.

Statuary - I am planning to buy several small altar statues. 1 feminine, 1 male, 1 mother goddess, some animal statuary I would like to get is an owl, cat, raven, & old oak and green man.

I'd like to find an inexpensive candle putter outter. *lol*

sea salts, and incense are always a great thing to get too.

I just ordered my 1st empty clear witch bottles.
I also need a dropper. I can probably pick that up at the store. *lol*

My Studies...

:)
My studies are going wonderfully. I am on lesson 2 at Sacred Mists. I have chosen to my 2nd deity focus on Arianrhod. My 1st one was Rhiannon. Arianrhod is the weaver of fates. She is goddess of the 'silver wheel' (the moon), fate, reincarnation, doubt, comfort. I think the deity focus at the end of each lesson is my most favorite part of my lessons. I get to choose what God or Goddess I want to focus on. So thats really cool. These 1st two have been Welsh/Celtic. I am not sure who I will do for my next one. I am kind of thinking about a God. I don't know anything about 'The Green Man' or Green Man. Or I think another one is called Old Oak. Or Ancient Oak. Maybe just Oak Tree....

I am now also involved with 5 extended classes at Sacred Mists.

1. Empathy
2. Aromatherapy
3. Lithomany (sp?)
4. Sacred Protection
5. Magickal Tools

I'm also involved in a game that last for a year. Called House Challenge. It is like in the Harry Potter movies. There are 'houses' and I am assigned to House of Air. Woohoo! Just like a fae. *giggles*
And all the houses are the 4 elements. Earth, Air, Fire, & Water. So far house of air is in the lead.
At the end of the year I think everyone in the winning house gets a special siggie. *smiles*

Everything @ work is going way fabulous. I'm as a happy as can be. I love being on 8 hour shifts.
The day goes by so fast!


Blessed Be ~ Wiccan Moon

                                                          sigtag by Hearts Enchanted

Work & Witch School

:)

I got changed to 8 hour shifts! Woohoo!!! More fun @ home for me. *giggle* I started on my 8 hr shifts on Tuesday May 17th. The whole day was just spectacular.  Today was really awesome too.

My assignment from Sacred Mists has been graded. (lesson1) And I got compliments on it. So, that is totally awesome. I enjoyed the deity focus so much. At the end of each lesson there is Q & A about the lesson. Then I have to select a deity to learn about. And  there is a deity Q & A also.

I'm so excited to get home from work every day to learn and study more about wicca every single day. It's so much fun.
In between my online studies, I am also reading books and practicing grounding and centering.

I also recieved my last order yesterday. And I got a couple of moonstones in 1 of my pkgs. So thats totally cool, since moonstone is sacred to Goddess Rhiannon. Thats my Goddess!

For my next deity focus. I might do Danu.
Bright Blessings - WiccanMoon
 

WiccanMoon-Book of Shadows and Light

:)
The beginning of my online witches diary started at: http://faerycharm.com/wiccanmoon
But I was late on paying for my hosting subscription. And now its not visible. So, I decided maybe blog spot is the way to go instead. So, I'll just catch you up to speed.

My Wiccan journey started about a little over a month ago. I've always felt a pull towards it. There have been so many signs along the way, now that my eyes are open and I look back at my life.
I enrolled in Seasons in Avalon. Loved it immediately. I have purchased 6 books on wicca and magick so far. My life changed immediately it seems like. Once I made up my mind that this is the path I am suppose to be on. I've loved my studies and homework for S.I.A. And have now recently been accepted to The College of the Sacred Mists-An Online Wiccan College.

Sacred Mists is a truely phenomenal school! I love it there. So much information and training.

I've met a wonderful artist on facebook too. Her name is Sabrina TheInkWitch. She is an amazing artist. And I've decided to hire her to draw a tatoo for me. Actually add to my triquetra on the back of my neck. I am thinking of a besom, long stemmed rose and raven. Blended in with my triquetra.

I've been purchasing tools for my altar as well. And I got to participate in Beltane. That was wonderful!! I had a wonderful magickal day. I'll never forget it...

Signature created by me.
Graphics created by Dark Enchantments

Day of this witch's garden

        I am soooo excited today! I woke up actually excited to get up and and start the day. Today is my day that I start planting my witches garden. My 1st garden ever. Too funny. 44 years old and just starting to live...

I just got a brand new camera too. So I'll most likely be doing some digital documenting.

I didn't have the funds to get all the seeds and everything I wanted to. But frost is lasting late here. So, I think I will be okay to still plant more stuff in a couple of weeks. I'll have to check the moon phase and everything in my witches almanac.

I have purchased a starter witches kit. Have a bunch of herbs. Hmmm.. maybe I could just drop some of those into the ground. *giggle* Not so sure it works that way though...

I do have seeds for my hollyhocks though. And some 'something' button. *lol* Can't recall the name of it right off the top of my head at the moment.
My daughter bought me my 1st garden statuary too. It's a 3 mushroom statue. So that is cool too.
Well, I'll let ya all know how it goes :)

 

Dark skies over me at work...

Two terrible days at work. Well I pulled into the office once again on Thursday. (I was just in there about a month ago or so being questioned about asking for narcotics from my co-workers. Which is not true.

Was questioned about it again on Thursday. Very very tired of this. But so much has changed since I was in there last. I didn't loose my cool. I stayed calm, happy. I refused to sign their paper work. Because I am not guilty of the things that they accuse me of.

They question the students to see if we are doing every single thing we are suppose to be doing with our residents. It was so obvious what managment was doing it is about laughable. They went down the entire list of all the basic things you learn in your C.N.A. classes and the 1st few months on the job.

Provide privacy, tell the resident what you are doing before you do it, or as you do it, etc... I do all the things I am suppose to do. I care about everyone. I care about my job, I care about the people I am taking care of, I care about the people I work with, I care about my family...

So, after lunch that day I went back into the office to request that a UA be done. And I was ignored. No one called me in the department I was working in. The next day 1st thing in the morning I made my request known again. Again, I was not contacted.

In the mean while I started breaking out in shingles, and of course in new spots on my body.
Now on my breast right where my bra and clothing touch.

I've been moved to the opposite side of the building. I've been accused of being 'burnt out' in the area I work in. I can't stand that word. 1st of all, its not even true. If I'm so burnt out why do I bring things from home to give to residents? Why do I go to the store for them? Why do I stick up for their rights? Why do I stay after hours when I already work 12 hour shifts, if I'm so burnt out?

Well, so now everyone in the whole building is all ticked off because the schedule was all rearranged. Everyone's position of where they work and who they take care of was messed with.
So, I'm sure all new drama awaits next week. I have a 3 day weekend off. Then I return to work with all new residents and staff etc... on Tuesday. And someone who has never ever worked in the unit I worked in for the last 2 years will be working over there with all men. Mostly sexual predators for the 1st time. They have notified her of this change while on vacation by leaving a message on her answering machine. I know laughable - huh.

Bright Blessings -