What a nice day...

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Today has really been a pretty pleasant day. Not too down today really. Washed down my frig, re-arranged the kitchen a little bit. Mowed the grass. My 1st time running a lawn mower at all - ever! *lol* How funny - huh!! Cut down some weeds, ran the dishwasher and a load of laundry.
Traded links with a fellow sister and chatted on yahooie with my daughter!! wooohoo!! Really good chats w/ her. And I've been doodling with some merlin outlines, making tubes for my members area. Oh! And made a new sister. Camilla in Texas. We've exchanged e-mails. She is new too.


Decided to bring my poor little flowers and herbs inside that are in flower boxes. Grasshoppers have nearly eaten them to death. Seeing if I can possibly revive them. **fingers crossed** I've been wanting to grow my own lavender for a couple few years now. So I really really don't want to loose that one especially.

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To move or not to move...

That is the question. I told my husband today that if I don't get this job in Lovell. Then I think we should start packing up. He says 'oh! and quit my 21.00 an hour job.' I said well I am NOT going back to housekeeping. And I have to get a job right now so I don't end up loosing my license for not having in enough extra hours towards my license for the state. And there are no jobs here. And I added I'm reading for a little bit bigger town. He sternly says 'well I'm not'. And you should have thought of that before you quit your job.

I still cannot believe he said that! And I said well I don't think I need a husband that doesn't even believe me. Because he asked me did I 'actually' put in an application at the 1st place or have I just been calling them.
Freaking outrageous I tell ya!

So, once again my husband has shown true togetherness, & support...

Aromatherapy!

I can certainly testify to the benefits of herbal tea and aromatherapy.
I can not believe that I actually got rid of a headache without using my prescription 'imetrex'!!
I didn't know what to do. Don't want all my imitrex used up since I'm currently unemployed and w/out medical insurance. The pills are very very expensive.

Anyway, I took a few whiffs of sacred rosemary oil. I just loooove the aroma of it! And I put some on my wrists and temples and forehead.
Fixed some fairyland tea from Under the New Moon. Also took some aleve. But my headache was gone way too soon for it to be the aleve.

My depression is lifted, headache gone, I feel hopeful and energized!
A huuuuuge difference from yesterday and from the way I woke up.
*tee hee hee* woooohooo!!!

I've wanted to write about my name giving for a little while now. But felt too overwhelmed and full of anxiety to sit here and do it. But now I feel content to share.

When my name was given to me. I didn't know that it was for me. I kind of wondered a little bit. But I thought, naaaw. It has to be a hint given to me in my sleep about someone I'm suppose to contact. Or someone I'm going to meet.

On May 28th - which is my best friends birthday. (Tanya) - another long story for another day. But a very interesting story it is! We've never actually met in person. lol

Anyway, so I wake up with this name Raven Silverwolf on my mind. Really really strongly and clearly.
I had joined a wiccan college and thought I'd find her in the members database. But no.
The month of June goes by. I'm flying high and happy and having the time of my life reading about wicca, plants, candles, elements, ... Participating in Sabbats. Then I was forced out of my job in mid June and my daughter and 2 grand kids Evie & Dante move to Illinois. (I'm in Wyoming) and I go through much sadness. Stop studying so much. Job hunting, and trying to get my mind off things a little by being at Facebook.

I'm in a group that someone else added me to. I don't mind. I like the group. I start getting involved in the craft more at home by practicing ritual, practicing mixing oils and herbs, and writing my own rituals. I end up getting involved in 1 thread in particular at this group I was added to.
It was about finding a wiccan name. I'm helping others try to figure out a name by a numerology
bases I stumbled across online. Except someone happily brought to my attention I was forgetting the last step. So that was cool. And I'm seeing others post that you can meditate for a name. And others were given their names through dreams. Dreams... Sleep... OMG! Raven Silverwolf is for ME!

So, I try this numerology see if by chance that name fits. My birth number is one. Actually it does fit
if I change the spelling. And yesterday I actually found 3 different spellings that fit.
Raven Sylverwolf, Rayven Silverwolf, & Raven Silverwulf.
WiccanMoon also fits perfectly using numerology. *lol*
So, I can use both I guess. Or maybe at the time I needed the name WiccanMoon to identify my dedications. My connections.

Then, as I grew & really began to take flight and connection became deeper.
The Lord & Lady bestowed to me - Raven Sylverwolf.
Those names in themselves have a lot of connection for me.

I have a tattoo of a celtic knot triquetra on the back of my neck. I was wanting to have something
added to it. A raven came across strongly to me. And the wolf. Well I've always loved wolves. My dogs have always resembled wolves (german shepard) & I had wanted a blue eyed husky since I was a kid.
My blanket I sleep with, that it feels like they protect me is a setting of wolves in the winter woods.

Love & Kindness -

A few other signature tags I created recently

  

 

Here I am again...

Well well well here I am again at the dark and stormy path.
wrapped in dark cloud's wrath
wings broken, spirit restless,

I feel like picking up and moving. Moving to wherever there is more.
More available, more stores, more opportunities, just more.
Without a job there is no reason to live here where I am at. Greybull Wyoming has a population of around 1,800.

I had a state job. It's the best job around here. People come from other towns far away to work there. The management, and how staff and sometimes the residents are treated by administration is not very good. But the pay and benefits are. I hate that it comes down to money.

I've put in applications and had interviews in other nearby towns. Worland is about 45 minutes away. Heard back from them. They don't have any room for new staff right now. Bonnie Blue Jacket is the closest place. It's just 5 to 7 miles. Not hearing anything from them. Every time I call. It's call next week. I've been really busy. Feels like the run around.. Went out to Lovell which is almost an hour drive. Had an interview the next day. If I don't get on there I don't know what I'm going to do.

I can still check with this home health care place in town. But no insurance. So thats not really going to do me much good. I have chronic migraines and am on an anti-depressant.

After that, I'm looking at driving farther and farther. There are 2 or 3 other towns I could try to go to their facilities. What a drag. All that driving. Alllll that gas! I'd just rather move to someplace that has more available. I'm ready for a change.

But there is the issue of we own a house now. Paying on it. Although the payments are low. Under 300.00 My husband is content here. Has a good paying job, 401k, ...

Personally I wouldn't mind getting more up into Montana. But I don't think I'm really ready for the big city of Billings. *lol* I've been to Red Lodge before. Very pretty there. I've heard really nice things about Grand Falls I think is the name. But housing, job availibility, cost of living, all those things factor in heavily.

Down...

This job hunting is really getting depressing. Even considering picking up and moving. But my husband has a good job, is happy at his job, we have a home, he has his circle of friends. Kind of not fair to uproot him. But I've been feeling the move bug for quite some time. And without me having a job there is no really good reason to stay here.

Still want to move even if I do find a job that I'll have to travel out of town to go to every day. Want to live someplace bigger. With more opportunity. I want to actually be able to go new age / pagan stores and pick up a book and thumb through it. Pick up candles w/out having to order them online. Have different stores to shop at instead of just going to walmart once a month...

I don't know...

 

Job Hunting...

oh wow, I'm so way tired. I don't know why. *lol* All I did is go put in 1 application. I was there nearly 2 hours though I think. Did an interview while I was there. wow I've never been to a nursing job interview before. The facility I worked at for 6 years sent me to the CNA classes. And I was already employed there as a housekeeper...

Everyone was very delightful though! I hope they have a spot for me. Hopefully full time. Part time scares me. Although, I would take that rather than being unemployed. But sure don't want to get stuck being part time..

Well, I think I'm going to walk in my garden, relax and head back out tomorrow to put in more apps. All the places that are
available are out of town. 40 - 50 miles one way. *lol*

My 1st circle casting, and using high power magick...

Wow what a day! Casey Marie Anthony was actually found NOT GUILTY! weird...


Tonight I wrote my own employment drawing spell for ritual or 'high' magick as I like to call it.
It was my very 1st time calling out to the 4 corner. (I also call them pillars) 
My very 1st time casting a circle. It was SO much fun. So invigorating. After wards I felt so powerful.
But I don't mean powerful in terms of I felt God or Goddess like. Nothing narcisistic like that. But that I just felt an inner power. More like a high self esteem. Like a beam of light was now shinning from inside me!

I researched my herbs in several books 1st. As high power magick was based on drawing employment to myself. So, it had to do with luck, love, money & happiness.
I annointed myself with sacred rosemary oil. I put a sigil of a pentacle on my 3rd eye.
I used an orange candle: for attracting things, luck, encouragment, strength, career goals, legal matters, action, ambition, property deals, & general success.
Although I know green is for money matters. I only had like a sage green candle. And didn't feel like green fit all of my needs for this employment drawing ritual.
Although I could have used both now come to think of it.

Orange is one of the God candles and green is actually one of the Goddess candles. hmmm... **thinking** lol
Green is for Lord and Lady of the wild wood, earth elemental, herb magicks, nature magicks(gardening), luck,
fertility(don't need that part lol), healing, balance, courage, work, prosperity, agriculture, changing direction or attitudes.

Hmmm maybe I should have used green also.
Anyway, for my very 1st circle casting I used a sample of a basic circle cast from
Ann Moura's book - Grimoire for the Green Witch.

Guess what. I had SO much fun! *giggles* Just had to add that in there.

Incense burned during rite - vanilla Set up of altar symbols - I set up my altar to the elements.
My altar cloth has a pentacle on it in the middle. So, I just go about setting it up on the pentacle.
With my altar facing north
Spirit: Ankh
Earth: bowl of salt with a carnelian stone
Air: altar sized besom
Fire: cauldron
Water: Chalice of water I centered before ritual.

I grounded after ritual. I've been practicing those every day.

I made a mixture of sweet almond carrier oil with a drop or 2 of bergamot, a drop of wintergreen, a drop or 2 of rosemary. Then with a wooden spoon. (don't have my mortar & pestle yet) I ground up a sprinkle of each of the following herbs: patchouli, rosemary, chamomile, and & vervain.
I then added a couple pinches of the herb to the oil.
The rest of the herbs I put in the bottom of my cauldron to burn with my spell,
which I always chant 9 times. (ugh! I really DO need a witches ladder for that!!) lol
My spell chant goes as follows: ( and I will explain the wording to you, so you can understand it - I am in nursing.
I am a C.N.A. so therefore that is what the wording has to do with - finding a job in chosen career field)

Let me spread love like wildfire;
Bring to me a job I desire;
Bring to me the luck of the hire;
So I may one day retire.

Now that I've had new ideas about the candle colors. I'm kind of excited to do it again tomorrow to do it again
with a couple of small changes. I need the practice anyhow so I can eventually not be
reading from a book. Well, I'm off to bed so I can get an early start on my wonderful day tomorrow... :)
~ WiccanMoon ~  )O(

wow! What a day it has been today. Every emotion from one end of the spectrum to the other... My daughter and Evie & Dante left for Illinois today. They moved there. I cannot believe that they are gone. At 1 point I felt like picking up anything breakable and cracking it all against the walls of my house. Then there were several crying fits. In the beginning it was all about -- they will be back for thanksgiving, I am excited to go visit. I'm happy for her to be happy and for the kids to have a good positive father figure.. Well, that little con-job on my brain didn't work for long. Because my subconscience knows the true tale. -- I'm dying inside. What am I going to do without my little dinosaur tale teller, and my cuddley Rosie Girl!!! Feel like I've lost my very best friend on the whole planet. I didn't even know Nicole & I had gotten that close. I tell her lots of things. I guess we are like good girl friends. Always texting and sending pics to each other, sharing thoughts, and experiences, I like it when they drop in on me. I love their company. Now I feel all alone. All alone. All alone. All alone... I was enjoying sharing with her all the new and wonderful things I'm learning in wicca & with my studies, and all the books I've been purchasing & reading. I have 20 books now! And I've been making Evie lavender oil, and telling her about different plants and herbs, and yesterday I made her pink rice scented with lavender and coconut. It smelled really really good! *lol* Dante isn't into any of that stuff. But Evelyn, she will listen to me talk about it til the cows come home. And she's sooo curious and asks so many questions. I sure have been really impressed by Nicole too the last few weeks. She has a doctor for the kids all lined up, and getting Eve's meds switched over to there, and she went to their school here and picked up all their school records so she will have them, and not have to wait for them to be transfered or faxed. She got so many things all taken care of ahead of time. Bright Blessings )O(

Lavender Oil

Today I made my grand daughter Evie some lavender oil. I had made a very tiny amount on Summer Solstice
 to annoint a candle with. Then rubbed the remainder into my hands & arms. And she smelled it on me and really liked it. So I told her I'll make her a bottle of her own. I put some dried lavender in hers & dressed up the bottle with purple string & a gold butterfly charm.

She likes it a lot! *tee hee hee* 

Evie's Lavender Oil
This makes 1 vial of lavender oil

put a pinch of dried lavender in the vial or it can be added last
(just make sure to save enough room to add it in).
fill vial almost full with sweet almond carrier oil.
Add 1 to 2 drops of lavender essential oil.
Create with your loving and pure intentions.
Wrap with string color of your choice according
to your intentions for your oil.
Mine was dressed with purple thread & a butterfly.
Butterfly symbolizes change / transformation.

This was crafted for my 11 year old grand daughter. At the time
I am going through changes. As well as she is too...

Theres only 4 more days until Evie and Dante & my daughter Nicole leave to move to Illinois.
Last week was all about fun. This week seems like a count down. Sometimes I'm just fine. Other times,
I'm trying so hard to not get all depressed. Feels like I am going to be all by myself now. Now I won't have
any family here at all. It's been so wonderful having them here with me in the same town over the past
3 years.  Although I'm happy for them being able to move on in their lives. I feel like I'm back to being all by myself
again.

I have no job now. Was pushed into quiting a week ago. Therefore I have no friends now either.
No family, no friends, no job. How could I help not getting depressed....

I havent even been studying much. I was so happy. Except the facility I worked out didn't fit me. But I was making it work. But then that all exploded out of the blue and got worse and worse. Seems like everything fell all apart in the same week.
I know that out of chaos comes change. It's really hard to see a phoenix rising out of ashes. I just have to keep going though.

I read today I am responsible for the way I feel. In wicca we are all responsible for ourselves. We make our own joy or sadness. 

Job Hunting...

today I put in an application in at a local nursing home & got to have an interview on the spot.

Felt positive! The administrator said she will have a look at the CNA schedule and see what she can come up with. I offered mornings or afternoons, if thats the only opening. I prefer mornings. But would be willing to work any shift available. 8 hour or 12 hour, part or full time.

 Well, we just had the briefest little storm here. *lol* Perhaps the powers that be are arranging my future for me. And this lil phoenix will soon be rising out of the ashes...

I feel so so good about this job. It will be good to get back to work. I am excited to get the phone call saying I can start...

My Litha Foods Part1

Freyja / Freya is just 1 of the deities associated with Litha.
It is Freya that I call upon this day to bless us with
love, beauty, and passion.

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Love for those we love and who love us
May we always see beauty in all things big & small
May the passion of magick live within us all
In Perfect Love & Perfect Trust...

~~~~~~~~~

Now I would like to share some photos I took today of my wonderful kitchen witchin'.

*lol*

There are before and afters...

 

 My soft mead as it was cooking.

 

dough stage of my solstice herb bread.
so proud to have used my very own fresh rosemary,
chives, & lemon thyme.

2 of my finished products of love.
My rhubarb pie made with love, happiness & friendship.
A good friend gave me the most ginormous stalks of
rhubarb I've ever seen! Can't wait to taste it!!
And my oh too yummy herb bread that I couldn't wait
to have a piece of.

 

Here are more pictures of my plants & herbs I took today as well.

 

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My purple passion plant. Haven't had one
since I was a pre teen!

some of my indoor plants.

our strawberry plants

and another strawberry plant!

My athame I finally got to use today.

My 1st try @ crafting some rosemary oil.

Litha 2011

Happy Litha! Summer Solstice Blessings!

 Today I performed a simple Litha Candle Lighting.

1 yellow candle dressed with 1part lavender essential oil and 2 parts sweet almond carrier oil.
I used the rubbing technique to dress my candle.
I sprinkled 3 parts (3 pieces) of dried Jasmine on the top of the candle.
(not an easy task w/ a chime sized candle).
At my altar with my ankh sitting out I then faced the rising sun. And repeated 9 times:
Lord and Lady of Love and Light
guide me on this day of solstice.

I kept it very simple so I wouldnt mess it up. This new witch sometimes gets nervous to be perfect and messes things up. *giggle*
I'm finding in the books that I'm reading though that pure intent and pureness of heart is all the God & Goddess want. So, I simple relaxed, focused, & visualized and everything turned out just fine.

I am allowing my candle to burn out on its own. I've never done that before. But in just 30 minutes
its a little more than half way burned already. So everything is going smoothly.

Now for explanation of my colors and herbs and oils.
When I say '1 part' I mean that I was just free pouring. I do not have a dropper yet.
So I just dripped the fluids slowly. 'parts' sounds large. But it really was not.
Since these are concentrated oils it only takes drops...

Yellow Candle: Yellow is for the sun & happiness
Since I'm a new witch I try to research everything to make sure I'm using the correct items.
Jasmine & lavender are both for love and calmness.
Jasmine: attributes of love and its effects are swift & obvious
Lavender: also attributes of love, cleansing, protection, shielding from negative vibrations.

I'm a huge fan of lavender. But not french lavender.
Music: Paint The Sky With Stars by Enya
I always have magickal music playing when I'm working at my altar.
I will do a more involved ritual tonight.
 
Now, I better get off here and start on my Litha foods.
Soft Mead, Rhubarb Pie, Summer Solstice Bread, Enchiladas, Fresh Strawberries and corn on the cob
I took a couple shots of my altar this morning to share also.

The picture that sits atop my little witches' cupboard
is a gift from my daughter and grandkids on my birthday.
It is Selene the Goddess of the Moon

Bumpy Path...

Storms have been brewing for months now at work towards me. I have been constantly, continually harassed by the administrator for too long. I was finally pushed into resigning. She has complaints against me constantly that are not true and says that I have a problem if I cannot see what others do and that she believes nothing I say.

I simply told her I do not care if you believe me or not.
And she replied with even if your job depends on it. Which felt like a huge threat. She has been trying to get rid of me for months anyway. So I said well what do you want me to do then resign or what. And she said yes. So I did.

A few months back the admin & my manager (at the time)  called me into the office for my review and said they have complaints that I was going around asking co-workers for narcotics! I've never ever heard of anything so stupid in all my life. Just because at 1 time I was on hydrocodone for shingles nerve pain they took that an ran with it.

Only problem was that I hadn't had any in over a year!! Then they refused to do a UA on me. Then it was just 1 dumb compaint after another. To where I was eventually pushed into a corner and I can not just sit there and be beat on and not push back.

  A lot of staff as well as myself are very unhappy about this. But what can ya do. It's not worth the stress to live that way...

I could feel this 'end' coming for quite a while. And actually in the days before this my card readings on facebook were pointing in the same direction. Even though I didn't want them to.

But, I feel deep down that I learned what I needed to. My time is up. It's poison. It's time to get out of there and move on. I'm a strong strong person and its just time to move on...
I have so much going for me! Blessed Be~